Lately, my heart is heavy. I can’t remember the last time I felt joy Work, at least, keeps me busy. Up to a point. This, I am thankful for. I try to keep present. Look at the flowers, the sky. When I prepare meals for myself, I concentrate. Lotus root, seared tofu, and pork bone soup. I eat in silence, or sometimes to videos. The soup is good. Sometimes, I take myself out for walks. This is my favourite cafe I decide to get a cheesecake Sweetness in the mouth, to forget the blue. It’s soft, but not that sweet. I don’t mind. I like it that way. And we finish off with brewed chai. I hope I’ll feel better soon.