I Survived Depression – My Journey Back To A Happy Life


I was born in India and I was pretty much
born up and raised there for most of my life. So when I was very young, I was moving from
one part of the city to the other, so my dad had to move me to this big private school. So, when I moved to that school, I was often bullied because I had severe weight issues when I
was little. And it was really hard for me to fit in but
that didn’t matter because I still had my dad with me. He was like my best friend, he often took
me to bookstores on the weekends and we’d read. Basically sitting with him and just reading
was some of the best memories that I ever had with my father. But unfortunately this didn’t last long, when
I was in the fourth grade my dad passed away. And that was the worst moment in my entire
life. That day was when everything came crashing
down. Not only did I lose a father but I lost a
best friend as well. After my dad passed away, I didn’t know how
to go on with life I was just so little and I didn’t understand anything. My family was getting so upset. We started having financial issues. It was the worst thing that has ever happened
to me and that was kind of why my depression started. I really didn’t see the point to living anymore
and the years went on after my dad’s death and my depression started to get worse and
my self-worth started to go really low. I often had suicidal thoughts and there are
moments when I just couldn’t take it anymore. My mom remarried to this really horrible man. He would often verbally and emotionally abuse me. That further contributed to my issues with
depression and anxiety, and to make things worse, I hit puberty. I was really vulnerable and I started hanging out with the wrong people and I started getting into really bad things like drugs and my life just couldn’t go on
anymore. One day I just decided to just finally just kill myself. I didn’t want to face life anymore but I had
this fantasy of what would it be like if things were different. I kind of had like these fantasies of having friends
and having a life that wasn’t really shadowed with depression and other issues and stuff. I often have this thought in my mind- What
if my life were different? What if I was given a chance to restart my
life? What if I was given the chance to kind of
go to a place where nobody would know me? And I would live my life the way I want to. Those thoughts kind of just kept me through the night. When I went to school, I saw these posters for the study abroad program,
which I gladly took on. Now, I live in Boston and coming here was the
best decision that I’ve ever made. Now, I’ve actually gotten the chance to restart
my life. Depression is still a major part of my life
but I’ve come to a point where it’s not as significant anymore. I still do struggle with it, but now its come
to point where I can control it and I have friends and I’m surrounded by people who love me
and give me positive thoughts. And I’m finally doing something that I love
with my life. I’m in college, my grades are good, and
like I finally saw the light to the end of my tunnel. Now, its like I’ve been given a chance to relive
my life and if so thankful for that.

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  2. You don't really need to get a story of depression.. My friend used to have depression but HE never said a story about it.

  3. if you have depression, you are not alone.
    a lot of people have it, and a lot of people die.
    don’t be one of them.

  4. To all of u who have depression just remember u can get through this God will always be with u and he didn't give u life so u can end it! U r amazing, beautiful,strong and I will accept u no matter what. Just remember U R LOVED JUST THE WAY U R! Don't let bully's tell u otherwise. Don't give up. Keep fighting. DONT LET DEPPRESION WIN!!!!!!! If u have depression just remember I LOVE U! Don't let anyone bring u down.U can overcome it and get through this.There r ppl out there who end their life thinking it will end the pain but they forgot about how it hurts their loved ones……….SUICIDE is never the awnser.And for all of u bulies out there…..LOOK AT WHAT U HAVE DONE.U have caused so much hurt pain to others just because u r insecure.STOP IT!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE THEM ALONE. Just like the girl in this video…..u can do it u can overcome depression.STAY STRONG.I know how u feel. And sometimes no one gets it…….but its okay we will get through this together.I LOVE U!!!!!!!

    and understand that its okay to be sad but it is never okay to try and end it all…

  5. I've been there. And it took a lot to crawl out of the black hole. I'm so happy for you that you didn't give up on yourself and was able to make a fresh start. I have a feeling your dad is proud of you.

  6. I was 1 boarder way to depression but before I got depression I got into high school soo I could of gotten depression but that was a phew months ago so your not alone 🙂

  7. I’m so happy for u!The fact that u survived this is such a big deal,it’s amazing,I’m so happy for u!:3

  8. God at work once again. He loves us more than we can ever imagine, and will never let us hit a dead end. "For I know the plans I have for you" declared the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

  9. Who invented bully?
    Well god can see Everything
    And he knows that you are sinful or not.
    No matter what you look like
    No matter if you look ugly and beautiful
    Everyone is equal no one is perfect from this world, we all make mistakes
    Dont judge people how they look like
    Ignore the people who made fun of you

  10. Guys, it's not with the video, i know, but i Will tell you something that i just learned.
    Live the life like there is no tommorow, make the things today, don't think that you Will have time to do it tommorow. Do it now, or start it now. Make something with your life, because nothing is shure, don't leave it for tommorow, because you don't even know if you're going to be alive tommorow, do something for your life. Be strong, no matter what's happening be strong.

  11. As I'm reading the comments they made me cry because as someone who started depression when I was 9 and has anxiety since 5 they were so sweet they make me smile which is very rare thanks you for making my day

  12. I had depression for my life so your not alone I can’t say that much because I don’t want everyone to know…

  13. Don't worry your beautiful your nice we already love you I love you here are some tips
    1 stay strong
    2 be yourself
    3 your dads always with you
    4 love yourself
    And
    5 be youself dont follow no one else be with the right people i love you

  14. It's ok to have depression..
    Just find the light
    Face your fears
    And most importantly

    Be yourself and be happy…

  15. I used to have depression then my depression was gone and I got it again…because of a rude boy just because im addicted to a song and my brother told me that he called me annoying

  16. Your skin isn’t paper, Don’t cut it.

    Your face isn’t a mask,Don’t hide it.

    Your size isn’t a book,Don’t judge it.
    A Comment is a comment so don't copy it without permission.

  17. I feel so bad for her😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧

  18. she's a strong girl! and if she can get through it, we all can! let's just believe and stay strong, you are not alone because God is with you!

  19. My dad passed away when I was in the 3 grade and it was the last few weeks of school in 3 grade and I got depressed and I'm still depressed and want to kill myself but ik that is my story this story describe me and my depression but I'm still depressed

  20. From the first seconds, she said she had good memories with her father, so I'm going to guess her depression is either caused by his death or divorce.
    Edit: 0:39 called it

  21. I wish I could restart and I wish I could have another go at life. I'll never be able to escape because I have responsibilities. I guess I have to take it with me to the grave.

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