Hey you! So today we’re going to talk about
“post-upload depression” or “PUD” to name it more adorably. PUD is this sense
of sadness or emptiness you feel after releasing something you’ve worked really really hard on. But what is post-upload depression? What causes
it? And is there anything that can be done about it? Well, given that it’s a made-up
term which I made-up, I have authority to make-up the rest of this conversation too
so let’s jump into it! Well as I mentioned before, PUD is a feeling
of sadness and/or emptiness. It’s this overwhelming sense of nothingness with hints of purposelessness,
dissatisfaction, and even shame. It’s a hole a lot of us can find ourselves in immediately
after sending our work off upon the world. But why? Hands today! They’re just happening! In my experience, PUD can be triggered by
a number of things. First of all, negative feedback. Anyone who’s ever released anything
knows just how crushing that one critical comment can be, even if it’s surrounded
by thousands of positive ones. I think that’s because we all have fears and insecurities
regarding our work which makes it very hard to believe the people we’ve fooled into
thinking we have talent. However, that one person who hates you and your work as much
as you do? You’re gonna listen to them because obviously they get it right? They know what’s
going on! You should respect them and their opinion. Something else that can trigger a bout of
post-upload depression is the fact that creative folk are constantly chasing an ever-moving
finish line. That dream of actually creating something truly amazing and the hope that
once you’ve done that, you’ll finally feel good and accomplished. However, that
moment never really arrives. If it did, people would probably stop making films once they’ve
won an Oscar. The fact is, as we improve, so do our standards, so we can never truly
impress ourselves. The last PUD-inducing element is the sense
of purposelessness you can wind up feeling after a project has been completed. A writer
writes, a painter paints, and a filmmaker makes films. So, in that space between projects,
when you’re not actually doing the thing that potentially defines you… What are you?
Are you still that thing? Or are you no longer a filmmaker, and more of a filmmader. Sure.
Either way, your time spent in that creative no mans land can be a very scary and isolating
and… WHAT AM I ANYMORE?! I DON’T KNOW!! So? What can be done about post-upload depression?
Well, the best advice I have is to expect it and to harness it. You see, much like fear
or self-doubt these are natural feelings which help balance us out as people. For me, I accept
that PUD is a natural part of the creative process and so when it hits I don’t let
it destroy me, I motivate me on to the next project and try to do even better the next
time around. To be honest, the only time you should really
fear post-upload depression is when you’re not feeling it. Because that might just mean
that you’ve gotten comfortable and you’re no longer challenging yourself. Or you could
just be a confident and well-rounded person but this video isn’t for you, you lucky
bastard, get outta here. Wait, no actually! Come back! Tell me what that’s like? So why did I make this video? Well, my hope
is that if you feel these feelings then you too can learn to identify, expect and harness
them. I’ve seen far too many creative people give up entirely because of this fairly natural
state of mind and that, my friends, is just not an option. Now get back out there and
make something. Or don’t. I’m not your Senpai. Actually, here’s something you can make.
A response to this video. What are your thoughts on post-upload depression. Does it exist?
What’re your experiences with it? How do you deal with it? I feel like this are fairly
uncharted waters so let’s have a chart… A little chat… Anyway… Until next time, TomSka out. I am fucking great at this job. I’m out.