Trauma and Addiction: Crash Course Psychology #31


All right, so you might have read “The Hobbit”
or “The Lord of the Rings,” you have probably seen them, you’ve definitely heard of them.
But not everyone knows the story of their author, J.R.R. Tolkien. Tolkien was an English
World War One veteran. A reluctant solider, he joined up with a sense of duty and he lived
through the bloody battle of Somme suffering tremendous shock, guilt, and loss during and
after the war. It took Tolkien years to processes his experiences.
To help him do it he turned to writing fiction and in time he constructed a world that helped
him and all of us better understand war, human nature, loss, and growth. His novels were
the bi-product of trauma and they’re among the more beautiful reminders of how it can
affect us. Most of us will experience some kind of traumatic
event in our lives and most of us will exhibit some kind of stress related behavior because
of it, these symptoms usually fade but for some those reactions can linger and start
of disrupt their lives or the lives of those around them. These reactions can develop into
full blown psychological disorders including post-traumatic stress disorder and, in an effort
to cope, sometimes addiction, but it doesn’t always have to be that way. Ultimately, Tolkien was able to harness the
effect of his trauma and shape them into something important and to reclaim is own life because there
is such a thing as post-traumatic growth, too. As it does with many other things psychology
approaches trauma related disorders with different perspectives, but they all tend to ask the
same questions. How do you identify and diagnose these disorders?
And how do you treat them, so that the patients can recover? — With the understanding that
they might never be the same as they were before the trauma, but they can still be healthy
and happy. In a way, psychology helps patients ask themselves,
what Tolkien asks his readers, and what Frodo asks when he is finally safe back in the shire:
“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How to go on, when in your heart, you
begin to understand that there is no going back.” It could be September 11 or a serious car
accident or a natural disaster or a violent crime that you survived but are still haunted
by. Trauma comes in many different forms and sometimes it can stick with you. When it manifests as nightmares, flashbacks,
avoidance, fear, guilt, anxiety, rage, insomnia, and begins to interfere with your ability
to function it can come to be known as post-traumatic stress disorder or PTSD. It was once call “shell shock” a term used
to describe the condition of veterans, like Tolkien in World War One but PTSD isn’t limited
to veterans. It’s defined as a psychological disorder generated by either witnessing or
experiencing a traumatic event. Its symptoms are classified into four major clusters in
the DSM V. One of these clusters involves re-living the
event through intrusive memories, nightmares, or flashbacks. The second involves avoiding
situations you associate with the event, while the third generally describes excessive physiological
arousal like heart pounding, muscle tension, anxiety or irritability, and major problems
sleeping or concentrating. And finally we have the fourth major symptom cluster: pervasive
negative changes in emotions and belief, like feelings in excessive guilt, fear, or shame — or no
longer getting enjoyment out of what you used to. PTSD patients may also experience numbing,
or periods of feeling emotionless or emotionally “flat” and dissociation, feeling as if situations
aren’t real or are surreal, feeling like time has slowed down or sped up, or even blacking
out. We have been discussing how anxiety or mood
disorders can affect a person’s ability to function and how that impairment itself leads
to more suffering and dysfunction. When any of these disorders is left untreated
suffers may start to feel desperate to find some way to cope and one way may be substance
abuse. Unfortunately, addiction and trauma can go hand in hand and it can be hard to
recover from one without also dealing with the other. According to the US department
of Veteran’s Affairs more than 2 in 10 veterans with PTSD also struggle with substance abuse
problems and 1 in every 3 vets seeking treatment for substance abuse also have PTSD.
And across many studies, between a third to a half of women in treatment for substance
abuse have experienced rape or sexual assault. For a long time most psychologists understood
PTSD through the lens of fear conditioning or the unshakable memory of being in mortal
danger and the learned responses that stem from that memory. But clinicians have also
begun to recognize that for some the disorder can also be a kind of moral injury, widening
the focus to include hauntings not just of violence done to a person but also what that
person did or did not do to others. Brandon was a combat drone operator in the
air force he enlisted at 21 years old and spent 6 years sitting in a bunker in the American
South-West watching Iraq and Afghanistan from surveillance drones. He watched soldiers die and people get executed.
He also watched kids play, people get married, goats grazing — and when the time came he
ordered hell fire missiles to strike military targets or people who had no idea they where
even being watched. Although he was half a world away from combat,
he ultimately suffered the psychological trauma felt by many on the ground soldiers. He was
diagnosed with PTSD. Brandon suffers no fears for his own safety, but still experiences
the same intrusive memories, nightmares, depression, anxiety, and substance abuse of many emotionally
traumatized combat soldiers. So do a lot of other drone operators. But why do some victims or trauma suffer from
PTSD while others seem able to move on? Well, its psychology so the risk factors are
complicated. Some findings suggest that there may be genetic predispositions making some
people more vulnerable than others. We also know that context and environment matter,
for instance, someone who has experienced childhood abuse might feel on the one hand
more ready to deal with difficult and traumatic experiences. But on the other hand they might
be more likely to default to the suppression and avoidance in which PTSD suffers frequently
engage, which as we’ve discussed in previous episodes often makes psychiatric symptoms
worsen over time. As far as whats going on in the brain, PTSD
shares some similarities with anxiety disorders. For example the brains limbic system may flood
the body with waves of stress hormones like cortisol every time images of the traumatic
event bubble up uninvited into consciousness. And we’ve already talked a lot about how the
amygdala and hippocampus are involved in those classic fight or flight reactions, which when
prolonged can be really rough on the body. In fact, neuroimaging suggests that trauma
— or the chemical processes set into motion by trauma — might actually damage and shrink
the hippocampus. Since this region is also associated with how we consolidate memories,
this might explain how memories associated with trauma could fail to be filed away as
long-term memories and instead remain vivid and fresh through flashbacks and nightmares. If there’s any silver lining to all of this,
it’s that some people may actually experience positive change after a trauma. Treatment
and social support help some suffers achieve post-traumatic growth, positive psychological
changes resulting from the struggle with challenging circumstances and life crises. That’s in part what Tolkien did. Though he
suffered great trauma and loss on the battlefield, he was eventually able to use those experiences
to drive those powerful, allegorical stories. Stories that helped not just himself, but many readers
of all ages around the world. It seems that while whatever doesn’t kill
you might not necessarily make you stronger, sometimes it really does. But suffering can feed on itself. Many victims
of trauma try to cope through whats colloquially called self-medicating and some can end up
with substance abuse or dependence issues. Psychologists define addiction or dependence
as compulsive, excessive, and difficult-to-control substance use, or other, initially pleasurable
behavior that beings to interfere with ordinary life, work, health, or relationships. This could mean over-consuming drugs or alcohol,
or compulsively gambling, eating, shopping, exercising, or having sex. People with addictions
may not even realize that they have lost control of their behavior for some time. Addiction can refer to a physical dependence,
a physiological need for a drug, that reveals itself through terrible withdrawal symptoms
if the use stops or reduces. Or psychological dependence, the need to use that drug, or
complete that activity in order to relieve negative emotions. People with addiction can sometimes be stigmatized
as pleasure-bound hedonists who have no self-control, but people often compulsively use substances
or do things in reaction to stress and other psychological problems. For various reasons
they have been prevented from coping in other ways or maybe they just never learned how. So in this way addiction itself is often secondary
to the more complicated matter of how a person deals with stress and difficult emotions, or what
kinds of stressful situations they’ve survived. Few will dispute that much of what makes addiction
possible is chemistry, but people are different — from their life experiences to their biological
sensitivities. So people respond in different way to different drugs and behaviors. Many
people can drink casually or gamble once in a while without losing control. Others simply
can’t. People in recovery from addiction may also
have different needs. Some will need to be completely sober and never again touch that
drug or do that thing. While others may in time be able to regain enough control to use
again in moderation. Likewise, some folks can kick the habit on
their own while others do better with or need support from professionals or support groups. Researchers and groups like Alcoholics Anonymous
debate whether addiction is a mental illness — like a “software problem” related to thoughts, and
behaviors, and feelings — or a physical disease — a “hard wire problem” related to biology
and genetics — or both, and even whether addiction and dependence are the same thing. Either way it can be hard to recover from
an addiction if you don’t get the underlying problem treated. But some people believe that
you can’t treat the underlying problem without first getting the addiction out of the way. While this controversy too continues, many
are moving toward a model of treating both at at the same time. The so-called Dual Diagnosis
Model of treatment. Addiction that’s rooted in deeper psychological
issues — especially in emotional trauma like PTSD — often require some version of dual
treatment to untangle both issues. The good news is while PTSD and substance
dependence may be distressing and complex, people can begin to heal given the chance
and the resources. We’re amazingly resilient creatures. When nurtured with
the proper support and practice, we can overcome a lot. Today we talked about the causes and symptoms
of PTSD and how trauma can affect the brain. We also looked at addiction, physical and
psychological dependence, the relationship between trauma and addiction, and why they
can require dual treatment, and we touched on post-traumatic growth with the wisdom of Frodo
Baggins. Thanks for watching, especially to all our
subscribers on Subbable who make this show possible. To find out how you can become a
supporter and help us do this thing just go to subbable.com/crashcourse. This episode was written by Kathleen Yale,
edited by Blake de Pastino and our consultant is Dr. Ranjit Bhagwat. Our director and editor
is Nicolas Jenkins. The script supervisor and sound designer is Michael Aranda, and
the graphics team is Thought Cafe.

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  1. I suffer from PTSD for the longest time and was diagnosed with it this year during my trial mission for my church. It's a pain dealing with it for what seemed like days. Learning about my disorder myself and researching it helps me know it better and how I can educate others about it! PTSD though it is one of the kinds of anxiety, has a symptom of that, depression, and a ton of other things! Right now, I'm getting help and felt a big positive difference with medication!

  2. Why not talk about complex-PTSD which affects people who have lived through things like long-term child abuse, imprisonment, concentration/death camp exposure and similar? This would help explain and talk about especially people who are survivors of hellish events like the Holocaust, Indian/Deaf Residential Schools or similar

  3. Thanks for speaking on subject matter I have been living the past 20+ years! Still seeking treatment. Wish I had known about this video when it came out, but I honestly could not afford internet. Nor treatment options that I felt I needed. Feeling thrown away by my doctors because I didn't go to them for a pill, I went for help finding what's wrong with me and get treatment. I have forced against my will to take medication, and deemed non-compliant because I would not, which was used to justify not giving me pain meds when it could have benefitted my quality of life! Or missed appointments/payments allowed office staff to treat me with apparent disdain, yet accuse me of obstinate behavior. I truly feel that they wouldn't care or work to help prevent life threatening/changing illness, only attempt to keep me alive when it's too late for me to properly care for myself without assistance. Again, the info here I have been seeking, where can I find care along these guidelines?

  4. I wish when talking about the genetic element, he'd gone deeper into generational addiction. There have even been studies that showed that kids who were raised by parents with disorders such as substance abuse, anorexia, gambling, etc. were also predisposed to growing up with those behaviours even when they were never witness to it. For example, if a parent had an eating disorder and recovered before having kids, those kids were still more likely to develop an eating disorder or something similar, despite never having witnessed it at home.

  5. Don't worry drone operators, the military is working on replacing your pesky, squishy human morality with cold thoughtless machines.

  6. I thought it was perfectly normal when My mother died and I didn't cry. I thought it was perfectly normal that I went 10+ years without crying. When the doctor said I had PTSD I laughed and walked out. That's not for citizens. Oh how I was wrong. Once I listened and followed directions life got so much better.

  7. My dad died 15 days ago, he had heart failure, his feet were as swollen as my thighs, his arms were so skinny it looked as if he had just came out of a concentration camp, his arms were swollen, his liver and kidneys started to fail while his heart gave out thus giving him the sensation of wanting to urinate but could not urinate , he was delirious the last day I spoke to him but had the strength to anwser me a very important question, I had to authorize the doctor to not put a tube through his mouth and not give him cpr, that same day he died, this memory haunts me, I keep having these symptoms I cant concentrate , how can I concentrate on my colllege work. Please help.

  8. Thank you. While we are ourselves, we are strangers to ourselves. A mirror helps for us to get to know ourselves and our SELVES…

  9. Ew. Calling mental illness a software issue and physiological illness as being a hardware issue? You sound like a functionalist divorced from the philosophy of flesh

  10. PTSD is the loss of innocence, and you cannot be everyman to be a hero, and you shall become an explorer to know your world, and this is traumatic to the human mind. I read J.R.R. Tolkien's books, and in them he projects persons as unique, special, and they shall become heroes and explore their world, or suffer the worst fate of death and destruction. In the end, the person who joins the military, or conscripted during war, finds themselves on the hero path, and heroes cannot be innocent: Heroes are also very often not rulers, because it is the king who sends out his knights to fight the war while the king gives the "order of the bath" (means cleansed of sins) in order to be that sanctified dark knight of Batman thinking who is a hero, the Great Detective (explorer), and not innocent. The innocent and everyman and ruler are unable to perform, because on the world stage of battlefields and nations the innocent die, it is made of outlaws, and all soldiers are unique (the Rule of Law is so often determined by 3% of the population, unless you are the loser, then everybody saw someone die in the successful invasion, meaning everyman is death). This conflicts with society that demands control of people, where to rule with Law and Order is to be innocent of breaking that law, and the rules are different in the military, and this breaks the mind when they have to do all of those rebel deeds on the battlefield (the things that society shuns, because they are abnormal to most social situations). What is worse, there is no culture in America to deal with the hero path of veterans and they are shunned and labeled inappropriate; therefore, we all become Han Solo and are required to be rebellious person in society (a closet outlaw), and this also means we cannot be innocent and cannot be everyman with the risk of being misfits in our own successful, war-winning society.

  11. An observation of green eyes, in the reports of UFO (space aliens) and abductions, green eyed people report about 40% of these cases while being 2% of the world's population: brown eyed people, by comparison, is the majority of eye color of the world and has the least reports of the space demons. This is a sign that eye color means a genetic trait for paranoia. I have always imagined that the green eyed Europeans suffered the most as a social group in ancient history, until they are having fantasies of invasions, being abducted, and bad things happening by monsters, demons, and space aliens.

  12. Tolkein was very talented. He was born and lived very close to where I live and his 'Lord of the Rings' books (the Shire) were based around Sarehole Mill and surrounding land in Birmingham, UK.

    PTSD is a very real condition and your explanation is excellent. I'm glad to have just discovered this channel. TY.

  13. i’ve been dealing with ptsd my whole life, and i didn’t even realize how messed up my self image or actions were until quite recently, when i was diagnosed with an eating disorder. in a few days i’ll be going to a treatment center for a short stay, and i’m very excited to be able to devote days entirely to my healing!

  14. It's usually that when people are suffering… the ones who are closest to them (mostly not their parents or siblings, though), also neglect and ostracize them to a great degree ( many an outburst is born of frustration due to feelings of not really being heard and or cared for enough to really be understood. Mostly peeps are really not asking for much. Many a modern close relationship is merely a formality at best. )… that is when people disassociate and fall down an endless rabbit hole. The results of which are often very tragic. I wonder what it would be like if we all still had a true sense of honor and gratitude. When we weren't so connected. All the drama is tiring. Like in the good old days perhaps… before civilization.

  15. I am a shy person and to deal with it I always try to dare to speak in public without preparation and thinking about the consequences of my words, unfortunately my words often make people offended and even though I have apologized, the person sometimes does not give a definite answer and it always it annoys me like trauma and it's very disturbing, is it PTSD? or what?, please I really need help because it really disturbs my social life

  16. I don't know if I have PTSD but my dad always thought I was extremely unhealthy when I was a kid, constantly freaking out if I didnt eat something every hour, obssessing over my posture bringing me to doctors every weekend and spend two hour sessions each day trying to adjust my posture to the inch and telling me my posture made me look like I had that condition people have when they are starving. He would constantly obssess about circles under my eyes and he would start yelling at me if he found out I had eaten something with sugar at a class party a month ago. He would blame me for not being able to have better posture, not have circles under my eyes, eat cake at class parties, ECT. For messing up the whole family dynamic since I was the reason he behaved like he did according to him. And I always thought that if my parents ever got a divorce it would be my fault. I've honestly not been able to feel happy most of my life and I have a lot of shame and anxiety, as it's been hard for my to get out of the notions that I'm sickly and not ok and that everything that goes wrong in my life is my fault. I also honestly feel ashamed as my dad's told me that most kids deal with mych worse things than I did, and I feel weak for not being able to rise above my experiences like most people. Honestly I'm even quite afraid that most people reading this comment will think I'm a spoiled brat for complaining about these things. I mean, my dad always emphasized that I never beat me or sexually abused me, which are both true, and I kind of feel like unless i had one of those experiences I have no excuse to be the kind of psychological mess that I am.

  17. Thank you for this video 🙂 when you say there's hope for healing and make your voice unusually slow it really stamps in mind 🙂 thank you 🙂

  18. If the ptsd is that bad it probably clinical depression. People turn to substance because of anhedonia and loss of motivation. Docs have not come up with any solution besides bupropion. It is vile.

  19. Hey John, for the past three years I have been trying to improve my understanding about psychological disorders and psychology ever since the first time I had a seizure which was terrifying for me. But I guess my post traumatic growth is studying this stuff despite wanting to do engineering

  20. **TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ABUSE & ABUSE IN GENERAL, TRAUMA, CHILDHOODS, AND TRANSITIONING**

    I think DID can derive heavily or even solely on PTSD. When having multiple personality disorders, it can be extremely effective in coping with trauma from the past. When a personality takes over, you do not have to deal with your current situation. You dissociate because your brain knows you cannot handle this trauma, especially if it is a repeated trauma. Maybe you're too young to handle it at the time so another personality, supernatural, inanimate object, or animal alter takes over and handles it for you. I'm saying this from personal experience from someone very close to me and from others who have this disorder and shared their stories online. And from researching, I found that PTSD can also be a huge factor as to why a person would want to change their gender. Hear me out, I am also open to the belief that someone is born trans aka they grew up knowing they were born in the wrong body. BUT! I want to also share what I've learned from others. A lot of people who are reportedly trans and regret their transition have said that they were sexually abused in their childhood, therefore believing that if they changed their gender, they could have stopped what happened to them, or that it would rid their disgust and guilt from the past (the body they were born in may disgust them because of that horrible event). They thought that if were born the opposite gender, they wouldn't have been violated. I was violated in my childhood as well (biologically I am female) and I had trouble with my own gender growing up. Now I refer to myself as gender fluid, but there was a point in time where I wanted to be male and nothing else. I think those who think the same and have gone through similar situations should think deeply about what they think will make them feel better so that they don't feel worse later on. I'm so sad that so many people can relate to such atrocities, but it's important to talk about so we can help others. We have to learn as much as we can and teach the youth so we can protect them from these dangers.

  21. Wow actually that sheds a lot of insight in there for me. I always say that video games used to be the medicine I took to get away from all the bad things and so it was especially painful the way everything on the internet has changed, become so popular and a direct mirror of the things i was trying to avoid. I know to some extent it's normal to relax etc but some unhealthy habits are sounding a lot like the same sort of addiction, especially because in my case, I do not have a support system I just try to work through my problems at whatever pace I can. When you talked about things speeding up/slowing down, feeling that things are numb/or very surreal, that all fits and not that I don't know better now but when I was younger it was hard for me to take things seriously when either things seemed completely out of my control as far as how fast things were going no matter how hard I tried, or how fake some things seemed. In reality many of the things we see and experience are a mixture of both and that understanding is also surreal. I didn't think it was depression because of my ability to rationalize things but that numb feeling and that feeling of not being able to do anything is very similar to what other people describe. Though… in this case I don't have episodes of remembering the trauma, instead I have… the memory of things I've liked that I no longer can see or enjoy or have changed permanently and it usually bothers me in my dreams. I also can sometimes be put into a sour mood when something specific related to an event that has happened to me occurs again and unfortunately it's made a lot of the more positive views on life seem foolish because I've been in situations where had I not had that demeanor going in, it would've been for the better. So basically flashbacks of regret long after no longer experiencing the problems I've dealt with.

  22. I still want to know why there is a constant presence of an angler fish…….even in the animations (i.e. on the chalkboard behind the drone operator)……what is up with the angler fish?!?!?!?! Cool creature for sure – but wondering if there is some underlying rationale?

  23. wish i'd known about that 5th cluster like, 5 years ago. instead of just being told im totally fine cause i only had one flashback :/

  24. Oh my gosh, dependance is sooo different from addiction. The caffeine headache u get, and desire for your morning coffee is not the same kind of all consuming, desperate craving that drives an addict. Even in the absence of withdrawal synptoms, this desperate need continues, in the absence of stress, the lack of the drug will still be a stressor all it's own. And you'd think there's an "aha" moment when the madness fever of cravings breaks, but there's not. (In my limited experience)

  25. My childhood was often mental and physically abusive. It was this video that has opened my eyes into my mental disorders. I've felt every symptom of PTSD but until now always considered them separate issues. I've been going through post traumatic growth the last couple of weeks. It's nice to understand what's going on.

  26. i never thought i had been in a traumatic event… until i found out car accidents were traumatic events, strangely enough though it didn't really seem to affect me or my family… then again there are more traumatic events……

  27. great video, but please, why not deliver the dialogue slower? you're not Eminem and this isn't a rap battle.

  28. 7:01 – let me fix that for you: what doesn't kill you gives you a lot of unhealthy coping mechanisms

  29. I've been struggling with symptoms of PTSD for years now, but have yet to find a therapist that takes me seriously or is helpful. I want to get to the growth, but I feel stuck. It's been years and I still can't get out.

  30. I think I am an alcoholic because of schizophrenia. It just helps numb everything. Or not care as much I guess.

  31. My father hurt me physically and he’d shout at me for no reason and he blames me for things I didn’t do and after he tries to apologize or act like nothing happened and when we went in vacation to Mexico I was diagnosed with anxiety and the doctor said “I noticed her right away, she looked as if she didn’t wanna be here.” I was fiddling with my hands ( a thing I do when I’m anxious) and he pointed and said “that’s anxiety” and I get angry really REALLY easily, I punched my wall and it cracked because I was for angry and I had to wear a bandage on my hand. I used to see my mother and father fight in front of me and we lived alone and I’m an only child so I had no one to turn to and as a child I got picked on a lot.

  32. Before I came out I was in a relationship and stayed out of fear that the person I was with would kill them self if I did leave. Unfortunately this developed into a need to make sure they were always happy so I pushed myself out of my comfort zones which gave me trauma. When I did leave I experience flashbacks, nightmares, I was constantly paranoid of getting into a relationship like that (whether that relationship was romantic or platonic) and I avoided anything I could that reminded me of it. It wasn’t an extreme event (at least not in comparison to how trauma can come to others) but for a while I struggled to even look at myself without seeing what happened and scaring myself. I am ok now. I still struggle with intimacy but got over it and have accepted it.
    Don’t know whether that was PTSD as I never could get myself to talk about it to a therapist (it went on for almost a year)
    But I found this episode very educating nevertheless
    Thanks 🙂

  33. In my worst trauma I wrote three or four beautiful novels. One day those books will be Oscar winning movies! My trauma didn't cause addiction though because as a christian we are told how to behave in the bible and so we know better than to be addicted to depraved things

  34. I grew up in a physical and abusive household, it was more of a stream of somewhat traumatic events and I also have seen things on the internet that have made it worse as well as had an ex who wasn't so nice. What a serious thing is, is that you can experience arousal from certain things that are similar to things that have happened to you and that SUCKS as a poor way to say it but it's hard when you don't want to have physical arousal but your body reacts anyway. It can trigger my memories and at one point I couldn't sleep for more then thirty minutes without waking up to a nightmare related to past experience. Luckily though I've been able to mentally grow and being pregnant and married to a man who is very willing to listen and hug me has helped me learn that I'm. Worth more then my PTSD. Because being pregnant helps me realize that if my baby went through anything I went through, even if they chose to go through it and it mentally scarred them like my PTSD does me I would love them just as much if not more, but never less.

  35. You put Batman on the thumbnail but never talked about him in detail…You could've explained all this with Batman himself…

  36. This topic might be my most understanding and easy to remember because on the previous ones, PTSD really associated with anxiety and stress that it is so self-explanatory to grasp information. Once we understand the main concept of stress, we will simply interpret how it does affect to an individual and to his/her surroundings.

  37. Who knew bullies were deadly (everykid)
    Schools: we had no idea , surely this is unacceptable.
    Also Schools: 2 days detention for you boys/girls.

  38. I never knew drugs caused brain related harm. psych! Haha we all do but were all to dumb not to use those for our own well being and others well being

  39. I considered my father's behavior as normal as a kid. There were times when he would tell me he would shoot me or cut off my ear or tongue. There were times I even thought it was my fault, he actually believed so.
    I got into psychedelics to get rid of myself… but it only gave me worse conditions like depersonalization, derealization and existential ocd.
    I wish I can be happy again.

  40. So I've binged watched these videos a lot BUT the cool thing is that I'm now able to use these videos! After years of treatment for PTSD, anxiety, epilepsy, depression, eating disorders, etc I am getting back into work! My managers hired me knowing about the conditions and we're using these videos to give them an in depth and well explained understanding

  41. 2:15 My trauma is from my parents getting a divorce and making me choose to pick a side when I didn't want to.

    Eventually I accidentally messed up a visit as I wasn't actually supposed to be there and then am now with my dad.

    Due to my fear of loosing my mother I tried to open up to her but had been back stabbed emotionally by her and her manipulative lawyers who placed an airport watch list on me and my brother, meaning that we can't leave the country because they fear we might leave for good even though we have everything here.

    Because of this as shown by the screen at 2:15 I avoid her at all cost by ensuring no contact is available to her including verbal communication, something which I have avoided doing for the past 4-5 years.

    Every time she tries to talk to me or comes near me I rage inside and have flashbacks of what she's done.

    Because of this even it's lead to other things which I've monitored and tried to keep in check including anxiety, addiction, depression and possibly other stuff.

    When I shared this story of how she back stabbed me to my counselor at court in charge of kind of representing my thoughts and ideas she had simply shrugged it off as not a traumatic event and knowing that she has bias to my mum to win in the court I still rage on her for all of the things that she's caused and ruining my whole childhood. Even though when consulted with 2 psychologists from the city's top hospital, it was indeed a traumatic experience of some sort.

    My story may not be as extreme, but it still teared me to shreds to have to decide.

  42. 2:45 I get flashbacks of someone almost murdering someone I know, I won't say who for privacy, but it's something that's stayed with me since my childhood and I can still remember the phone that was used to call and the large knife in the air.

  43. Addiction is the cure for trauma. Once you realize this you can start helping people instead of looking down in them.

  44. Could you do a video about disorders having to do with rage? Specifically IED, Intermittent Explosive Disorder. You explain situations, disorders and symptoms very well and I'd like to see and hear you explain this interesting disorder.

  45. I knew a few people sexually abused and they had terrible problems, one dude just got locked up for slitting a dudes throat. That’s why I get pissed when people say “love is love” and attempt to say pedophilia is normal, if you have a whole generation of abused people you’re society is gonna collapse from drug issues, mass murderers, serial killer etc

  46. Around this year my therapist disanogned me with PTSD it steamed from me being sexually abuse by someone who was very close to us , I experience extreme moment's of rage , impulsive actions like stealing , I am plagued by nightmare flashbacks to the event it almost feels like it had just happened yesterday
    I have moments in where I feel emotionally numb to the point in where me even wanting to make relationship with people are to much I have issues with mostly with opening up to people because since this person was close to me he knew lots of things and I felt comfortable talking to him but after what happened I couldn't bring myself to get that close with someone again , I am afraid someone will get to close and take advantage of me the way he did , and I am trying to move forward with my life but that is so hard when my mother constantly brings up as an insult saying " this is how the way you made it for everyone life because of you * then( she would point at me) " , " or I just wish I could get away" @nd " your family in Georgia doesn't want you and so doesn't this one I a can't take you anywhere no one will let you in your house

    But I know when I am older I am going since no one wants me then I won't be around as much .

  47. BRILLIANT! I love crash course and think this level of education is MUCH needed in society today. Someone to sit and explain in laymen terms complex issues. Bravo!

  48. I suffer from PTSD and thought I was the only one who would have these panics or triggers (it's triggering now so I won't go into too much detail) but my dad was always so abusive and controlling, it effects (Affects??) My everyday life, I can't sleep until 2 in the morning, I start to zone out whenever it starts triggering, I have to live with my dad bc my mom can't physically take care of me, he still hurts me, CPS won't do anything, the only one who listens is my therapist (which I have for different reasons) I'm gonna stop it here bc… Well yeah…

  49. ALSO! My therapist says that if you start triggering, do the 5 senses on an object touch, hear, see, smell and maybe not taste

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